October 2010
1 post
blaaah
September 2010
4 posts
I have major rage :(
hello
i havnt been on here for ages. i dont like it.
but i thought i would post an update on my life. ive been to leeds fest it was very good, blink 182 and the libertines made it for me, also being with a special person also made it very good.
things are much more complicated now. i want to go away to an island and have no worries :)
i miss you.
May 2010
55 posts
I love Plan B so much it makes me cry.
i dont know what to do about anything :(
grrrrrrrrrrrrrr fuck off anonymous.
Im good at looking after other people. I cant look...
you dont know how sick you make me.
everytime i think of you … i puke.
Eminem, cup of tea, biscuits and fifa. lovely way...
things to look forward to. this is needed to keep me happy.
lady gaga
hopefully manchester at some point
sonisphere
move into house
leeds fest
my sister came to visit yesterday :) we went to see chase and status and they tore the place apart :D :D took fuckin ages for them to come on and i was bored and sobering up and every knob that barged past me made me so angry but then they cameon stage and all was forgotten! oooooooooooh <3 altho plan B werent there :’(
i wish i was eminem :(
also im working 9-5.30 tmoro and that makes...
today has been strange! i woke up late and have just been in bed with laura all day watching films! i gave her a necklace that she likes so im happy :)
doin my essay now though and i feel sick and horrible and shaky. its not nice :’( need some snuggles!
i do NOT like writing. i want to paint.
well today has been up and down. im mental. which everyone knew but i have to help myself about it now. boooooo. laura came round tho and cheered me up loads like she always does. but she had to go home and i had to start my essay. i cant do it. i just dont know what to write and the fact im writing about mental people doesnt actually fill me with joy. i am in a crazy state atm and i just want to...
today has been ok. went to the library and remembered why i never go. its so shit and there wasnt one book that i would of been any use to me.
came back and used the internet to get all my research and started my essay. got 1200 words done so im pretty pleased :D hoping to get it all done by tmoro night.
i have the doctors tmoro tho :’( im so scared :(
also im in a horrible mind state...
I just remembered standing on the roof of revenge...
recently i cant drink without crying at some point of the night. loser!
well everton score a wonder goal in the last minute :D :D
reading my travelling brochures and dreaming of what will be in a few years, cant wait.
going to watch crash tonight, great film :)
cup of tea time!
just wish my princess was here to cuddle me <3
Tell me all of your hopes, All of your dreams, I want to take you there Tell me everything, Every breath, I want you to know I’ll be there There’s just one more thing, One request, I want you to take me with you
Take me with you, I will never let you down, I will love you now and forever.
had such a good time in brighton :) was gorgeous and sunny! and the gay bar was great! not as good as manchester though.
not had a great day but laura has made things loads better for me :)
hopefully tomorrow will be better.
oh i cant wait till festival season!
going to bed.
been a strange night :(
up early!!
I long to see the sunlight in your hair And tell you time and time again how much I care Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow Hello, I’ve just got to let you know
And I want to tell you so much, I love you…
i feel horrible and sad and insecure and not good enough.
this is not a feeling i have often but when it arrives its like a knife in my heart :’(
lets just pretend and make wishes out of...
I was just sick :’( and i nearly fainted :’(
stupid head. guna have a break n curl up in bed.
I will man up after my tea :)
needs to get this out of my life. needs a new start. needs you to grow the fuck up.
so stressed i want to cry. glee made me cry and now i cant stop! will make a cup of sugary tea to calm myself down then start more work. i will do an all nighter and after 10am tmoro i can come home and sleep through the day. i only want one thing but no one ever knows :(
I am back on track for my deadline. done so much work today my hand has cramp :’(
cup of tea and some pasta, maybe an episode of glee then back to work. not going out tnight now so will work throught the night. dont go to uni btw, its torture (or just do the work when you are meant too so no deadline stress!)
guna spend my last £4 on some bread, milk and maybe a treat to keep me going with this work. wanted to buy a dirty mag but cant afford :’(
turning out to be a really really SHIT weekend. it had so much potential!
Is this turning you on? im in your room.
fuck you and your expectations.